Oftentimes, we go on about what we lack. I mean, you hear people go on about not having the most trivial stuff and you wonder, is that person complaining of a half-empty cup or one that's half-full?
Most of it is pure vanity while some people just complain because they don't know what else to say about a life near perfection or one that will never be worse because of sheer insatiability, if that does makes sense. I, for instance, often go on [silently] about not having one or two things that [whenever I sit back and think carefully] I'd actually do without, yet how I'd love to have them for sheer luxury! Oh the human/woman in me!
When I watched the story of Vivian Stringer, I thought, "Wow! I don't know what I'd do if something like that were to happen in my life! I'd give up. I'd stop having any zest whatsoever in life, I'd wanna... I don't know... DIE! But then again, I think, I've undergone deep losses in my life too. I've lost someone I hoped would be my life partner - to cancer - when I was, what, 17. Four months down the line, I lost his unborn child through a miscarriage - the only thing that would have left a trace of him in my life forever. Something I'd have held onto.
However horrific that period was, I've had to go through worse situations in my life, but I overcame them through the grace of God. I mean, how else would I have made it to where I am today if it weren't for the grace of God, huh?
But you see, I'm not sharing this for your "oohs" and "aaaahs"! No ma'am/sir. I'm sharing this part of my life (for the first time in public) to encourage you, who's reading this, to get out of your shell. Stop complaining for all the things you don't have and start thanking the Almighty for all that you have. Stop blaming the Universe about your horrible past and start thanking it for this far God's brought you.
Yeah, I know you must be reading this and thinking, Girl please, I'm gonna go to church whenever I need a sermon, so keep yours. But hey, neither you or anyone else will stop this feeling inside of me. The peace that I find in knowing that all that's happened did for a reason. That God had and has a plan for me; a good plan. I mean, after starring death in the face for three years and coming out victorious (even if it's just for now), full of life and ready to take on the world, what more could I ask God for except HAPPINESS, CONTENTMENT (with the much or little I have depending on how you perceive my life from an outsider's point of view)?
Let me just say that when I learnt that I'd be writing for +ElleAfrique Magazine , I thought, "Wow! This is me. With everything going on, God's still got my back!" I'd just made it to the executive committee of the Editor's Forum of Namibia (EFN) right about the time I found out that I'd be writing for the magazine (May this year). So here's to say that I haven't written in a while because I had nothing to say, but because I was wondering where to start, for I have so much to say; so much to share! Then I stumbled upon an inspiration; Vivian Stringer, the basketball couch on Nine for IX Short Film: 'Couch'.
I know her story isn't "African" because she's American, but let's face it, as an African woman - no matter which part of the world you live in - how many of us go through life's setbacks and still come out of it all with a smile?
Watch Vivian Stringer's story if you're still wondering whether you should thank God for a cup half-empty or one that's half-full.
Here's the link: http://espn.go.com/video/clip?id=espn:9345908&startTime=16:23
Tuesday, 4 June 2013
Someone wrote on my twitter timeline yesterday that old is gold but I beg to differ. I mean, like c’moooon! Can you really say that with enough conviction that aging is indeed precious? Like please, in this day and age, there’s totally nothing golden about more figures in one’s age. Don’t agree? Allow me to elaborate…
Monday, 13 May 2013
What do women want, you wonder? Hmm! Let's see...
In between going through all our childhood being told that we are meant to keep the house clean; refrain from being violent "because it's un-lady like"; strive towards dreams that would include a prince charming and a glass sandal [in the figurative or literal sense]; aim to be the "coolest" teenagers without being cheap naive young sluts; go through high school and college as the invincible alpha beings who can handle pressure from every corner of life and then impress some bloke who would probably just want to marry us for all the wrong reasons; have beautiful and SMART kids with the bloke as is expected of us, while keeping a full time job with a straight face...
and of course...
Fighting for a top spot in class with the boys while being able to keep up with the fashion trends to impress the same boys; losing friends one by one as our careers, our relationships with "the man of our dreams" and [maybe, just maybe] a kid-on-the-way or already-born child takes centre stage in our lives, as we try to please 'the girls', our men's boys, our in-laws, our siblings, our parents, not to forget our colleagues, longtime high school and college buddies, the women at the community centre or church, not to mention our own kids...
All this time - especially in our teenage hood - we stress over the shame we'd put our families through if we were to fall pregnant, yet, we do not wanna disappoint that "boy" who's every girl we know is a dream 'cause he wants to have sex with us but we're not ready yet. So we end up torn between a rock and hard place all because this bloke has chosen us and not the mean prettier girls we know. And it makes us feel so damn special!
And then in our early 20s, we feel like we could concur the world; we have just completed college, we have a great job with a decent salary and the future looks promising. Then we turn 25 and start worrying about the big 30, 'cause it approaches so damn fast! So we wonder what it would do to us if we reached 30 and would still not have achieved all the dreams we had the timeline for. You know, the "I will have had three degrees, gotten married to the man of my dreams (who had better fit into my checklist) and had kids by the time I turn 30" kind of dreams.
Realising that we may not achieve half, if not all of them by then, we end up settling for a totally different life. Then we become miserable, if not resentful towards everyone and everything we think might have had a hand in "destroying our dreams" and then we sink into depression and watch the years race by as we get in too deep on the routines of our daily lives - get up earlier than everyone to fix a quick breakfast, drop the kids at school, go to work (which we don't even like but stay in because it pays the bills with hardly any savings), pick up the kids from school, get home, bathe the kids, prepare dinner, serve it, help the kids with their homework, retire to bed exhausted and then do it all over again the following and every other day - that we forget who ever wanted to be.
As soon as we turn 30, we start worrying about turning 40, and menopause, and wrinkles, and getting old, and losing our shine, and... well... dying from some weird old age or lifestyle disease... without having achieved all our dreams! You know, the job of our dreams, probably being famous - for the vain - (sorry to say), the prince charming chapter, BEAUTIFUL and SMART kids, a beautiful home; a happy family, you name it.
Still wanna know what we want? Hmm... The truth is, we don't know 'cause we live all our lives trying to be us as well as everything else the society expects us to be! So we die still trying.
It's Mothers' Day. It's the month of May, so I dedicate it to my fellow mothers.
What do we want; as women and as mothers, really? I'm gonna use this month to reach out to all the mothers to help me attempt to tackle this question.
Yeah, I'm talking to all of you; the married mothers, the single mothers, the foster mothers, the grandmas who take care of their grand kids for whatever reason, the sisters who have taken their nieces and nephews in for whatever reason. Yeah, I'm gonna be talking to all of you this month, even the pregnant ones, not to mention the ones who keep starring at the pill every night wondering when to stop taking it for fear of the unknown. And no, I won't forget those who wish they had kids as well as those who are trying to have kids but that belly just won't keep anything in because I was once you. Yeah, I know you can't help going, "Oow" every time a woman walks past you pushing a pram with a sleeping baby in it... and I'm gonna be talking to you too 'cause I feel you.
We are going to explore what it is that makes us wish we could celebrate the second Sunday of the month of May (Mothers' Day) every other Sunday amidst all the junk that goes on inside our heads [that I have mentioned above].
You know, a lot of us complain that men don't get us. But I'm gonna need us to be very honest this month as we celebrate what makes us the mothers that we are or wish to be, if we are to seize the day and be happy.
For now, I know I'm not too late to wish the working moms, the foster moms, the full time moms, the grandmas, the aunties-cum-moms, the new moms and my fellow single moms; a HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!
I know the best of us are already getting ready for the week ahead; packing kids' lunches, already preparing tonight's dinner, lunch or even breakfast (depending on the time zone in which this finds you), preparing for that meeting [or presentation] at work tomorrow [or in the course of this week]... whatever it is you're doing right now, do not - even for a second - forget that God's got you.
I mean, I don't know any mother who could say there isn't a God (or a higher power, depending on what your faith entails), yet whenever they look into their kids' eyes, they see something their hearts could never fathom. They see God's true love for them. They see inspiration. They see a miracle(s). They see, well, something bigger than them. They see... God.
I could go on, on end, about how being a mother makes me feel or how it has transformed me as an individual, but that could just be me, for I don't know about your experience - you who's reading this right now. But let's just agree on one thing; motherhood has its bad days, it does. But it's mostly a crazy party you wish would never end :-).
My 5-year-old promised to let me lose today because the teacher told them to help their mothers on Mothers' Day, but I've been breaking my back since we got home from church as usual. No complains, though :-). Gotta go now, mommy duties call :-).
Again, Happy Mothers' Day, fellow mothers. Catch you all in my next post when I address you each and let everyone understand why we will never truly know what we want, but that we shall try being the best we can be till... well... till we are no more!
Till then, God bless.
P.S.: Listen to Matt Redman's 'Never Once' from his 2010 album; '10, 000 Reasons'.
Tuesday, 30 April 2013
(excerpt from my upcoming book)
So I'm sitting at home, pretending to watch something on TV while my baby watches her cartoons on the laptop...
So I'm sitting at home, pretending to watch something on TV while my baby watches her cartoons on the laptop...
I don't realize that I am literally starring at my phone weirdly until she points out that I look like a zombie and we both giggle. Her smile reaches her eyes, she seems happy. But mine doesn't 'cause I can hardly feel my face. I can feel myself getting numb due to the mixed emotions going all wild inside of me.
This is new to me, not entirely, as I wouldn't say I have never loved another man before. But this, you and me, is different. It's not a silly teenage love affair-like thing. No. It's grown and mature and I want to hold onto to it, but it scares the heck out of me. God knows that being with you consumes me!
For starters, I have lived for the longest time with my emotions shut somewhere far that I could never reach for them. I had to shut them out, 'cause I had been hurting from years of harbored internal pain. I didn't know how to deal with them, so I decided to shut them out and care very little for human kind except for my little girl.
Can't believe I'm heeding my shrink's advise only now that he's gone! He always asked me why I was so angry and we would always explore the possible genesis of it all.
For the longest time, he asked me if I'd ever re-marry and at first I'd say never! But with time and after lots and lots of therapy sessions, I started saying that I would... someday... if and when I found the right man.
And of course you can imagine his next question; who would the right man be like?
After probably a week's brain-racking, I said, "I know I don't have the right to ask God of this, but I really just want a man who truly fears Him and one I cannot live without!"
And then I sat there and wept, 'cause even I didn't know what what I'd just said meant to me. And he let me... tissues and all.
Three days later, he asked me why I would not wish for a rich man or a successful man and all the other stuff the average girl chases after.
I said, beaming, "Well, because I'm not your average girl. *smiles*"
I added, "I just want a God-fearing man I could not live without because ain't no way he'd fear God and not treat me right. That kind of man would help me be the woman I yarn to be but do not know how to become. That kind of man would grow with me, emotionally and spiritually. That kind of man would see God's existence in me. And ain't no way he'd lay a finger on me, knowing that I'm God's own gift to him."
My shrink stared at me in awe and then said, "I'll not charge you a dime from now on, girlie. You'd do my job better... someday!"
After his passing, I thought I would lose my head. I thought I'd head for destruction with my face first. But just a few months down the line while I was still blocking all human contact except that of my little girl's, 'cause I needed to talk to someone so bad, you just dropped on my laps!
It has been an interesting couple of weeks; with me trying to explore the human side of me that actually feels for another human being, and you trying to find yourself [as you put it] and all.
I mean, here I am, starring right into the eyes of the exact description of a man I asked God for not so long ago, but the man looking back into my eyes is just broken as I am. He's hurting inside and I don't know what to do about it. Why? Because this is the first time in like forever that I'm actually allowing myself to feel all these emotions. It's as if I've just switched on an "emos" button and can't switch it back off!
I'm scared as hell, 'cause I don't know how I'm required to act in a normal relationship, if this is even normal. I mean, what exactly do couples do when they're not having sex?
But I'm willing to learn how to do this. I want to love you like my life depends on it. Screw the rules. Screw the dos and don'ts of relationships. Just screw it all. I just wanna be insanely capable of saying "I love you" to another human being other my daughter and actually mean it.
Oh, by the way, I'm so bipolar it's crazy. But I'm willing to bury the BS and be yours, to love and to honor you (and all that stuff people say in situations like this).
Call this desperation, being pathetic, nagging, clingy, etc. That would be your own baby. Mine, Sir, is to NOT give up on you.
At this point, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that I'm actually proposing to you. Of course you're a guy and probably not used to this, but here I am. Pride, out of the window, gone! Here's is all of me.
Allow me to be THE girl, not "THAT girl". Allow me to be YOUR woman, no BS, no rules. Just you and I - us - helping each other face our deepest fears, one step at a time, loving each other with every waking breath... Just us.
P.S: I understand that you need your space to sort out whatever it is you wanna sort out by yourself. Promise not to pressure you into talking to me or making any kind of contact in the process. I pray for you. God's listening, that much I'm sure of.
Friday, 26 April 2013
Thursday, 25 April 2013
A lot of times, we go through life so 'empty-headed' that we are barely aware of our comings and goings.
It's mostly because our lives are made up of daily routines - or in some cases - we live for everyone else but us.
While watching Good Deeds the other day, it hit me that most of us live by the society's rule book; we are born, we attend pre-school, then primary/elementary school, then high school, then college, then get a [good] job, then get married and have kids with someone we have probably known all our adult lives, then get old and die.
With this kind of 'routine' (if I could even call it that), we end up with so many 'default behaviour'. The kind of behaviour that are predictable to everyone around us. The kind of behaviour that instill a certain level of fear of the unknown whenever we want to try something new.
Take Tyler Perry in Good Deeds, for instance. Dude had been groomed to take over the family business since he was five. He lived his parents' dream all his life and was to marry the girl whose mother had been his mother's friend for like forever! Then dude meets a "normal" woman, a baby-mama who's been through it and back and isn't scared of sending even "the white old dude named 'Deeds' to hell" for being a jerk. Dude soon realises, through this lady, that it's time he lived for himself too...
Point is, we all need time out.
There are times in life that I haven't been aware of my comings and goings 'cause I didn't pay attention to the inner me. And then there have been times when I've sat back and watched the outside me tear the world apart and did nothing to stop her.
While speaking to the VVIP the other day, looking for inspiration to put this in black and white, it dawned on me that I'm not as okay inside as I thought I was. I realised that I have kept my emotions shut to the world for the longest time and it's time I changed that for mine and my baby's sake.
Thing is, I have always preferred to keep my emotions wrapped in a tiny little gift box and hidden in an abandoned haunted house in some place no soul would ever find it. Reason? Well, because it has always been easier to go through my daily life not giving two rat-asses what goes on around me. But the problem with allowing myself to feel something, anything, is that now my emotions are all over the place!
Nothing's wrong with that, says the VVIP (very very important person).
But we differ in opinion when it comes to this because I never allow myself to break. Can't break now more than ever, I tell him. I mean, I've got to be strong for my little girl. I'm all she's got here, for Pete's sake! How would I cry in front of her, huh?
You need to crack sometimes. You're allowed, VVIP beseeches me.
So I sit there, my cell phone pressed to my cheek, fighting back tears 'cause my little girl's sitting right beside me, concentrating on something she's watching on the laptop. I cannot shed a tear.
For starters, I'd risk being vulnerable to the VVIP. Secondly, it would make my little girl sad to see me sad. So I fake it till I feel it.
I need time out, it seems. I'm holding too much inside and I need to let it out before it destroys me, I've been told. Turns out that I need to take a day or two off; cell phone off, no internet, no book, away from everything I know... and just space out. Doc also says it would do me a whole lot of good, but I don't know.
I mean, show me any sane single mom who can decide to leave their baby with someone else for more than 12hrs in the name of "taking time out"? Really, show me.
It's almost impossible because we (single moms) worry. We are always out to get whomever tries to hurt our babies. We're always out to protect our babies from the cold, hard world. We always think nobody's good enough to be there when we need them to... and, and, and.
Bottom line is, we all need time out every once in a while to find our sanity, to find ourselves [as the VVIP likes to put it]. And no, I'm not gonna sit here and lie to you that I ever find time to do that myself. What I can tell you though, is that it would be good for you right now to do as I say and not as I do. I mean, you know what they say; professors' kids aren't the smartest on the planet and neither are preachers' kids ever close to holiness of any sort.
Truly, you need time out. Doesn't need to cost you an arm and a leg. No. You really just need to take even just an afternoon off; away from any kind of technology and everything else you know and just think, meditate, pray, do some yoga or whatever it is you think would relax your mind, body and soul. Do it for you and do not apologize for it.
I'm gonna heed my own advice pretty soon, and when I do, you'll be the first to know.
Till then, reach out to the inner you. You need to be in contact with him/her, believe me.
Monday, 15 April 2013
My little girl likes going on about who doesn't wanna be friends with her and who likes giving her "frozen shoulders" as she puts it. and, and, and... But if you've had the opportunity to interact with me on a personal level, you could already guess my response to her complaints.
See, I've lived better part of my life vetting my anger at the Universe for taking certain things from me that I once held so dear, forgetting (or should I say overlooking) the good things it has often swung my way. But you see, that has been me being human.
In my daughter's case, she's allowed to fret over who doesn't like her at school or at the Sunday school, because... err... she's a five-year-old "insecure" girl. 'Insecure' here is in quotes because insecurity isn't something MY daughter should have to undergo for the mere fact that she's so intelligent, beautiful and often has her bitch hat on.
I often tell her, "You're a beautiful girl and beautiful girls like you do not need to seek other people's validation of them because they know what they are worth..." (of course you can imagine how challenging, if not plain hilarious it must be to explain to her what the word 'validation' is.
The point is, we often spend so much of our time worrying about what the next person thinks of us. What we are often unaware of is that the same people, as Ellen Degenerous the comedian and TV host puts it, worry about what we think of them. Funny, huh?
Heck, whatever happened to "live your life"!
In a conversation with a VIP over the weekend, we realised that we have both done some pretty self-destructive behavior in our pasts and we have both had our share of judgement from the holier-than-thous.
As we spoke, it hit me just how angry I still am at them for judging me without ever taking their time to know my story. But then again, I realised that I don't think I'd have wanted them haters to get all up in my business. It did hit me that I have always prefered them thinking of me as Queen B than a saint. It makes life easier, I have always thought. For whom, I have always asked myself. For me, of course, so that I wouldn't have to go through the pain of explaining my actions to whomever, I have always convinced myself.
What I, however, left out in my "mental debate" is that my life is no longer just about me. There's my daughter to think about, there's my health to think about, and then there's the possibility of a life to share with someone else to think about too... now more than ever.
I have often cared less about how my actions might affect those around me. But as from the beginning of this year, I made a pact with God. Told Him that I'd stop all the crazy if He made me better and provided for my little girl.
No kidding; I walked into the doctor's office last Friday and after all the intrusive junk she often does, she took a deep breath, put her equipment on her table and then said, "Go and live your life, honey!"
I suddenly fell a chill down my spine. Then there was a lump in my throat, then my entire life rushed past my mental eye and for the first time in three years, I was scared. And not the kind of scared that makes you wanna hide in the closet, no, it was the kind of scared that makes you wanna stop life just for a minute and start all over again or die all the same! I was damn scared! Scared because it was time to face my realities. Scared because I didn't know how to be happy and the fact that I didn't know that has never bothered me because I have lived for the "now" for a long while now. Scared because I have been pretty [for a lack of a better word] adamant on whether or not to be okay with the feeling of being truly happy. Scared because it was time to stop being bitter and angry for what did or didn't happen in the past. Scared because I do/did not know how to live, love and let someone else love me.
My doctor gave me a tight hug at that particular moment having read the expression on my face, but I was too stiff to hug her back. I could not comprehend what she had just said. Did "go and live your life" mean that I only had a couple of days/weeks/months/years to live and that I should live it to the fullest or did it mean that I was now free of "the bug" (as she likes to call it)!
It is in remission, she said. Of course I'd wanted to hear that word in like forever! Now that I had, I didn't know how it made me feel. So I just decided to take a journey to the inner Vicky. I became dead inside; didn't know whether I was coming or going. Did the routine stuff I usually do and I couldn't find anything to excite me. I still don't know how to deal with "my new situation".
Breathe, girl, I've been telling myself since. I'm too scared to have a proper conversation with anyone at the moment for fear of breaking down, which is so unlike me because I don't like to show my vulnerability to anyone, not even my own daughter. I don't cry. Period! But I think I should, like yesterday, lest I blow up one of these days.
But while I still asses how to live my new life, I'm gonna put my bitch hat on and just live!
While I'm at it, I'm gonna give it my all; no BS, no grey lines, nothing. I'm just gonna live till the clock stops ticking inside. But above all, I'm gonna be happy and discard anything that makes me feel anything but.
Feew! Feels good to let the cat out of the bag, even if it's just its tail showing... for now!
Till the next read, forget what your situation is, just join my team and let's rock life's runway. I'm on #TeamLive and I've got matching shoes and a handbag to go with my bitch hat. What do you have on?
P.S.: Bitch hat here simply means loads of positive attitude to live by each day! :)
Tuesday, 2 April 2013
...both have the same intense emotions, it's your choice!
How often do you sit and wonder what it would feel like to watch everyone who's ever hurt you in any way suffer?
Do you ever space out creating perfect scenes in your head in which all your 'victims' would beg you for mercy?
Well, I'm sure that the best of us do this more often than we realise... and it's okay [as long as you don't end up actually carrying out those 'perfect' bloody scenes in your head]. I mean, let's be practical here; you are allowed to explore your imaginations. You are.
But rethink all this in ten breaths. Would it make you feel better seeing every single person who's ever hurt you in pain? Would it, now? And then what?
For starters, Madea only exists in the movies, honey. We all know Madea don't wait for no God to punish you; she damn well does it herself, 'cause God's gonn be compassionate witchu!
Alright; so they've lied to you, made you cry and hurt you 'real bad', bluh, bluh, bluh... and instead of standing above the heap of shit, you've decided to wallow in the misery that are your offenders.
Do you have any idea what you're doing to [or should I say, 'for'] them? You're giving them the satisfaction of seeing you writhe in the pain they've caused you. Is that what you want? Really?
Picture this (true story); I'm holding my three-month-old little girl in my arms inside a dusty garage, starring at a heap of my belongings. It's pouring heavily outside. My baby has just fallen asleep after crying uncontrollably of hunger, probably because I might have underfed her in a bid to save some baby-food for tomorrow. The thought of that tears me apart inside. I hold back my tears till she falls asleep. Then I go to the garage's furthest corner to let it all out. I weep, uncontrollably, asking God, 'why me, Lord?' I curse at my offender(s) [in this case, my baby-daddy] for abandoning me when I need him the most. All this is after he calls my phone and tells me off, just a couple of hours before my little angel and I are evicted from our little apartment for unpaid rentals.
I sob. I curse. I wonder how anyone could be so cruel as to evict a young foreign mother with a three-month-old baby. I wonder why my baby-daddy would decide to take out at this point in time. I wonder what's gonna happen next. I worry about what we'll eat tomorrow. I worry if the landlord was serious about letting us use the garage just for the night. And I weep some more... I wake up at the sound of my baby's cry in the middle of the night. She's hungry. What now, I wonder...!
Oof! Breathe, girl. The thought of that chapter of my life story often takes me to dark depths, as you can imagine.
But ask yourself how much I think about it. *Tapping chin with middle finger, thinking...* Well, every once in a while, especially when I'm faced with a challenge.
Of course, as you must wonder what happened to us next; I lived. WE lived. It was so damn tough. There were so many times I almost resigned to the fate my baby-daddy had planned to resign me to. But hell, I was gonna die before giving up on providing my little God's own gift to me (my daughter) with the life she deserves.
Take a minute and imagine what I must have felt. What I must have wished for my baby-daddy. I was as angry as hell! I was angry at everyone and everything. I blamed God for letting it happen all over again as if I had not undergone enough pain in my life. I cursed everyone who "wasn't there for me". Why? Because I expected them to come to my rescue.
What I'd forgotten is that, like the social network pages, people are consumed with updating their life statuses, that they forget about those around them who suffer. But can you blame them? Of course not, because everyone has their own problems. Some talk to everyone who cares to listen about their issues while some just bottle it all in. Hmmm... Careful with the 'bottling in' part, because that bottle is soon going to explode at the wrong time and place! Trust me, you do not need that.
See, I would have chosen to go on a revenge spree and made his life a living hell ['cause I had the means to] or I'd have just striven to be better than what he wanted to make of me; a sad black dependent baby-mama who could not even chew gum without her baby-daddy's say-so.
I chose to rise above the heap of shit and not let it consume me. It got pretty ugly before it became pretty beautiful.
I prayed more than I cried myself to sleep, though. I begged God not to let him have the last laugh. And I'd smile every morning like I lived in a mansion.
What am I trying to tell you? I'm saying that you should let it go; whatever it is you're holding against those who have done you wrong. That anger is only eating you up inside. I bet you spend more than half of your waking hours plotting how to make your offenders suffer.
Channel that energy into being the best that you can be. It's the best revenge you could ever give anyone. Do you know why? Because your haters have labeled you with negative code names. They spend their waking hours working on how to make your life miserable.
Well, here's something to write home about; DO NOT GIVE THEM THE SATISFACTION OF BEING AT THEIR MERCY. Seeking revenge against them would only make you like them. But that's because you would be so bitter, you wouldn't be able to see through the tears in your eyes. Wipe those tears if you wanna see clearly, duuhling.
You're blocking God's blessings 'cause your closet is too full with junk that you do not even need!
You have dreams, I'm sure. Strive to make ALL OF THEM a reality. Do your best and let the Universe work the rest. Be happy, live each day like it's your last and see the Universe reward you handsomely.
All that waiting for a better opportunity to get back at your offenders is making you bitter and eating up all your chances of living your life to the fullest, duuhling.
Stop being bitter, aim to be better!
Thursday, 14 March 2013
was a few years back?
Or, has it passed its peak?
My honest answer is 'yes'. It's not the most important web presence
that you and your act should have these days.
That role goes to your own website - you need read a series of articles on how exactly you should set up your
artist site at the moment!
Your artist web presence now needs to be led by your own website,
backed up by a presence on Facebook, YouTube, Twitter and MySpace.
That's if you want to try and use ALL the effective tools at your
disposal. It's true, there are a few artists who don't use all
five of those channels (some just relying on one) but that's a
risky choice and you'd better be able to let your music do all the
However, although MySpace has passed its most dominant moment, I
actually do think it's still important in the part that it plays in
your career and promotion of that career. How can that be if its
moment has passed?
Well, that's because MySpace is no longer the hot new thing but has
become the establishment. Odd because it has happened so fast.
But now, although some artists won't bother, if you don't have a
MySpace page you are preventing some of your potential fans from
MySpace is still the first place that many every day folks and the
music industry guys go to to find out about a new band. A band's
MySpace site still comes up very high in Google searches as well.
So, in truth, I think that having a MySpace page is now an option
rather than a necessity but you'll still benefit a great deal from
finding new fans and making connections with other bands by putting
in some effort to maintain a presence there.
As we move forward it's clear that you'll need to control a
presence on many sites (Twitter and Facebook in particular) and on
your own site, and your MySpace page will be just one place that
fans can connect with you. However, for now your profile on this
music-focused social networking site
is still worth your time and effort.
I wouldn't listen to anyone who says it's over. The latest figures
for 2010-2011 show a large drop in visitors to MySpace, but it is still
the 50th most visited site in the world.
The latest design changes have made it a bit less user friendly but
they have also said that they are now primarily a place for people
to discover music and films - so I'd keep a presence for now.
Make it an up to date showcase for your band - almost like and
electronic press kit - and it will continue to pay dividends.
So check out what's left of it and tell me what you think.
This article is posted courtesy of Chris Rockette (Make it in Music)
You often find the fashion freaks that wouldn’t be found dead on the streets looking A-okay!
“The color of your belt should if not a must, correspond with the color of your shoes”.
Weird how you find those of who claim not care a piece about fashion yet fuss over a guy on the street wearing a pair of suit pants with a paired of multicolored sneakers on a Monday morning!
Really, now I FUSS over that too! Or you find those who also claim not to be “fashion conscious” but wouldn’t show up anywhere in public in a flared top and a flared skirt as they know that they’d end up looking like a huge bird with no wings. That’s when it hits you that “the probability of you bumping into people you know when having a “bad fashion week” is super high!” – One of the gravity laws Newton totally forgot, don’t you think?
And yeah, we all have our fashion moods each week but I go by “dress-to-impress” any day. Why? The answer is simple; Confidence!
Ever wonder how your days vary to each other considering the outfits you wear on a daily basis? Never bothered? It’s time to pay attention.
Say for instance, you’re trying to catch someone’s attention who works close to your place of work. You feel confident to say hi whenever you bump into each other over lunch at the restaurant around the corner (when you’re feeling perfect in your attire), and terribly dread the thought of meeting this same person when you’re not “perfectly” dressed. Well. Don’t get me wrong. Am not trying to make you squash yourself into a nut shell, but here are some of the tips that would boost your confidence via Fashiorama with Vee any day!
1. Attires say a lot about you:
You know what they say about food and people; you are what you eat? Well, I say, “you are what you wear” too. Clothes say a lot about you including your accessories, your hair, nails and yes, SHOES! Trust you me; the moment you have your confidence boosted, the inner beauty blooms out effortlessly because of the way you feel outside. You’re able to flash genuine smiles at people and step out of your shy side and face each day head-on.
2. Attires speak to people:
Believe it or not, attires could get you hired of fired…well, depending on the job up for grabs. Imagine dressing in a super short but BEAUTIFUL skirt suit with the top showing the rest of your world to a Sales and Marketing job interview. The 10million dollar question would then be; between the company and your bodily assets, which ones would you be out there selling?
On the other hand, if you wore this same outfit to a managerial job in a night club or some fly restaurant, I bet you, you’d have a different feedback as compared to the result of the latter. Figure this out and know what to wear the next time you’re heading for a job interview. It would also apply to the men with weird sense of style. It must be something about them being fashion disasters (no offense), with no sense of color and an abnormal love for jeans and woodies.
Call me J!
3. You are not what you wear??
Really now? Of course India Arie, the singer, sang that song and got you thinking that you really aren’t what you wear, huh? Come on. Come to think about it; if you dress pretty sloppy and out of touch with yourself, it would give anyone the impression that you don’t care how you look like on the streets, at work or at school all in the name of “you aren’t what you wear and you don’t care what people think”! Well, let’s see if this doesn’t get you fired or gets your lecturer thinking that you must be a part of some terrorist gang and call the FBI on you!
Simply put, people don’t take you seriously if you dress in a manner that would make them want t buy what you’re selling…not literally of course.
Well, literally speaking, of course you’re NOT what you wear. But figuratively, we all know my theory applies. Just because you are able to walk in town in you flip-flops, a T-shirt, and the tiniest shorts in your wardrobe doesn’t make you a “simple guy/girl” fashion wise. It screams a word I wouldn’t bring myself to write here.
Whatever happened to plain pair of denim jeans, a plain colored T-shirt and plain colored sneakers, if “simplicity” is what you want to portray! Don’t you fuss over grown up men walking the streets in broad day light in their inner vests? Would they handle it if ladies started showing up in public in their push-up bras with their boobs looking like their butts on the chests (depending on the boob sizes)?
4. Have you signature look:
People please! Having your signature look doesn’t need any Lois Vuitton, jimmy Choo, Prada, D&G, and Gucci (the list goes on…), to have you looking like an A-Lister. Be THE trendsetter. Play around with the colors in your wardrobe and come up with a new look everyday.
You don’t really have to go all red carpet on yourself to be a trendsetter by copying the celebrities you see on TV. Let them rather be your fashion inspirations but don’t be seen wearing every look-alike outfits of Kim Kardashian or Usher everyday. Spontaneity baby!
The secret is to use what you already have in your wardrobe to get heads turning your direction.
Take for instance, almost every for ladies out of every five on the streets wear pants/trousers. Why not go skirts or dresses then and just work it?
For guys, find out what works for you; half casuals or just fully casuals, old-school, hats, caps, skinny jeans, buggy jeans, etc…
Nothing creeps me out like a guy wearing a brown belt and a pair of white leather shoes. Guys please; the color of your belt should if not a must, correspond with the color of your shoes. Thank you!
5. Be modest: Sexy, not Trashy.
It is one thing to dress in sexy outfits and it’s totally a different story to dress and end up trashy. Without being judgmental, sexy is accommodated at any time of the day but trashy can only survive in your boyfriend’s bedroom when you decide to be naughty on a Friday night.
When you dress sexy, you know better than to expose “everything”, yet when you dress trashy, it shows that you nothing about the science of the mind on how one attracts pleasant attention when they keep people guessing than when they leave nothing that makes people wonder what lies beneath that cheeky slit on their dress.
Sexy would expose your legs and thighs, enough cleavage and arms to show off. This keeps anybody curious to know what’s more beneath all the reserved areas. But when you expose your legs, thighs, arms, back, cleavage and the like, you end up giving way too much candy to undeserving eyes. Remember, sexy and modest screams “Ooh-la-la + Respect”. Trashy on the other side would scream statements like, “am desperate for sexual attention (and it doesn’t matter from whom I get it)”.
6. Use the days of the week:
This couldn’t be rocket science!
Let Monday be a no-joke-day but keep it sexy.
Tuesdays are meant to be the “yeah-my-blue-Monday-was-yesterday” days. So create the look that says that you are approachable today since you weren’t yesterday as you were having a presentation at work, being a Monday.
Wednesday is a mid-week day and the countdown to the weekend starts here too. The best of us like to drop somewhere for a drink or two with colleagues after work on Wednesdays. So wearing something that would easily turn into a “club-look” later in the day wouldn’t be a bad idea. Wear a pair of high waist pants with suspenders plus killer heals. This totally rocks!
Thursdays are kind of dull and busy most of the times as there’s loads to do at work as the week draws to an end, but a simple fitting skirt and a sleeved top in wedge heels would do the trick.
Fridays, wow, for most people, you’re allowed to show up at work in half-casual attires. So why not use that sort a sleek pair of skinny jeans you own and complete the look in stilettos or killer heeled pumps, a collard but sleeveless top and a cute blazer to wrap up the week? After all, you are bound to end up somewhere funky with the girls/boys after work and you don’t want to look like you just walked out of a choir practice from church into the club.
For the weekends, well, let’s just say that I suspect that you’ll be warming each other’s beds and are likely to stay indoors. In whoever’s house you end up after the frenzy Friday night, I guess it suffices to assume that you’d make do with his buggy shirt or her towel would do till Sunday evening!
...follow your success
This is for a DIY musician who hasn’t quite made it yet, but is well on their way. One quick advice, try to follow this if you are hungry for success and be sure to have just that: Success.
Key elements of the DIY musician
There are so many things about the way one builds a career that fits with what the entire idea of doing music is all about:
- Embrace the ‘freemium’ model, but let your fans still go and buy the same songs from iTunes et al;
- Do your 10,000 hours, and more on the music sites;
- Collaborate with exceptional talents to learn more to advance your own talent;
- Embrace Social Media to build a fan base;
- Stop looking for a record deal until you are sure that you are ready and has worked out who you are as an artist, what you wants and how to get where you want to go!;
- Engage yourself in activities that put you on the industry map;
- Leverage a brand association to give you a push ( this should be a result of all the above hard work);
- Have a functional, informative and active website at the center of your online presence.
Bombard agents and managers with tapes of GREAT complete trucks that you have already worked on as demos. Meet them and play a few tracks in your rehearsal room. Most managers as well as agents have done a lot of work with pop producers and writers who think that there might be something they could do to help. Be enamored of involvements with other major artists – be their massive fan and use the platform of being around them during gigs to reach your fan base too. Get a good manager with pop contacts who is ready to toil with you all the way.
Don’t give no matter what happens.
Turn your challenges around and take calculated risks knowing in advance what’s the worst that could happen if you tripped even just a bit. Your talent needs to have that chance. Read The Story of Success.
And, following on from that, take the time to focus on your own music before floundering around desperately looking for a record deal.
On your site, write pieces of articles explaining to your fans why you aren’t signed to a record label, yet! How cool is that?! In fact, I can’t ever recall someone being so upfront about their plans, clearly stating that you have ambition but also making the fans feel that they are right there in it with you.
The reason is that there are certain things that you need to do first to give you the best chance of succeeding in the future and also allow yourself the time to experiment and create the music you really want to make. It’s also in having loads of fun while pursuing your talent and that is what it’s all about.
The most important thing is to keep getting your music out there to as many people as possible and hopefully finding new fans along the way. The best way to do this is to continue making your music available for your fans to listen to while not being afraid to develop your sound as you go along. Keep touring whenever you get the required resources, practicing, and perfecting your live performances. At the same time, start releasing your own records independently for a while. Now this could such a hell of a bad time with enough challenges to complete the package, but you have to grow through that.
And, let your site be a paragon of ‘best practice’ for all the other artists you hang around– lots and lots of free music, but there’s a shop too, lots of social media links, and an email sign-up. However, don’t fall into the habit of asking people to trade an email for the free music, which I in fact recommend, but instead come right out and ask your fans to tweet or post on their Facebook page and other social networks you might be a part of, but don’t overdo it. – And ask for their opinions on your music.
Most of all, it comes across as completely genuine.
Hoping that you have the good fortune (born of your hard work,) write lyrics with some of the very successful songwriters – and whilst doing so, do the right thing – listened and learned.
Get yourself the guide to “scientific” songwriting. It’s a very specific method. Songwriters in this discipline write lots of different bits, lots of melodies and after the lyrics are written, they pick the four or five of the very best. You could write 25 melodies for one song and only four or five of those shall be chosen, so you never know how a song is going to turn out. But it works. It’s a tip worth knowing!
I hope that after reading this, you’ll grow from this pivotal moment and become a smart artist. You know you have the talent and are trying to uncover your art before looking for mainstream success. Chances are, you’ll become a household name with a great deal of musical integrity.
What can every DIY musician take from this? Well, watch your steps, dedication to honing your talent and the way you use the modern online world to build a fan base before you look for success and a helping hand. Sure you may be lucky, but let that luck comes from your hard work.
(Adapted from 'Music Marketing' by Chris Rocket)